Leaving Rehab - How It's Going

 Wow alrighty. I've been out of rehab for a little over a month now.

It's been fairly painful leaving all my friends from the ranch. Especially Alexandra. 

I was so excited to leave but now I find myself wishing I could go back. I have the entire world in my hands right now and I could literally do anything I want but I feel still like I'm frozen in place. I'm wondering when that serenity and peace will set in because it's been anything but peaceful.. but then again we're talking about me and the atmosphere I create. I feel like it's toxic.

I have some stuff I have to get off my chest. It's way too heavy carry but I don't know where to go for that kind of support. I start therapy again this week - as well as working at the mortuary. At least I have that.

xx Riot